Thoughts

THOUGHTS

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Entry No.  0.9

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I have been gone for so long, perhaps for a month! For this long, I have given myself another chance to take on the path as others of my profession have taken. But, it seems like their path was not mine as well, after all. Like Cinderella’s sisters have tried to wear her shoes, the path I tried taking has been ragged and full of bumps and hurdles – it was not fitting to me.

Realizing the defeat, I raised the white flag with humility and enlightenment, once again. Unlike before, this time, I am no longer at lost. I know what I am made to do, and this has never been it. Why push myself to something I was utterly taken away from? Why should I not pursue the path I was made to take?

Numerous reasons stop me from pursuing my purpose. These are the reasons that require me to survive. During these trivial times, I have been hoping for a sign that will ultimately tell me what I should do. You see, I do believe in signs, constellations, day dreams and purposes, and I have been praying for that through a guiding book. Finally, as I was sitting on the dirty floors of a bookstore intending to buy a different book, I saw Elle Luna’s “The Crossroads of Should and Must: Find and Follow Your Passion.” This could be it, I told myself. This could be the sign I have been waiting for. It was very unlikely of me to look through that bookshelf because books in that area are quite expensive, but there I was suddenly crunched down at the lowest shelf of that bookshelf reading through the pages of an expensive book.

The book did not tell me what to do. It offered me the opportunity to choose which path to take, how and when to take it, instead. It opened my mind that people can be who they ought to be beyond age or incapacities their lives have for them. They conquered every possible reason to stop pursuing their purpose, and continue living the life they are made to live. I want to be that. I want to live a life full of hope, happiness and life!

Hopefully, the inspiration I have now will never leave me as I continuously fight to live the life I am fated to live.