Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Entry No. 1.2

THOUGHTS

If anyone knows someone who can teach me how to live life, please let me know. I badly need one!

You see, my life’s a shamble. My daily routine is ineffective, and my social life is a mess! I cannot fully blame this to my job as a nurse, can I? Well, the schedule’s pretty crazy, I know, but still, all I do after work is sleep! Are other nurses just like that?
This week has been challenging. In fact, it should have been a lot better if I was actually awakened by my alarm clock. But, recently, my alarm just can’t wake me up! For five days, I was asked to give intravenous medicine to my sick infant relative at eight in the morning. My working schedule has been changed for a few times. So, there were days I cannot administer the medication myself. (Luckily, they have MDs in the family). But, on other days that I was actually available, I was late! I did not just wake up on time. I was really pissed at myself because I committed into doing that. I was even guilty because they gave me few bucks for my “supposed” commitment with them. I felt really bad.
In addition to that commitment, I ought to teach a kid for a regional declamation contest. I was, again, late! I hate myself.
It seems like being late is a trend in my life now. Every commitment I make after duty hours, I am late. All my body wanted to do is to sleep and rest. But, I have a long list of things I should be doing. I am an adult! I want to just bang my head on this table right now, maybe answers to my indwelling personal dilemma shall arise themselves if I do so. Is anybody reading this now? Please help me.

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