Thoughts

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Entry No 0.6

Being an introvert is definitely difficult. I have so much in my mind that I just cannot say out loud. I can if I will, but I just won't. Hesitations are not a big issue here, but I always give the benefit of the doubt to things. Baka kasi ganun talaga, hmmm... parang mali, but they sound so confident so baka yun talaga ang process dito, wala naman akong iba pang sasabihin, same lang nung sa mga sinasabi nila... iba lang ang wording. However, these "BAKA" thoughts proved to be vital at the end of the day! Nakakainis! Sana pala nagsalita ako. 

I respect authorities and people with more knowledge than me. 

I would rather listen than talk.

When asked I have no problem talking, but initiating the conversation is never for me, I guess. I do not like the idea when people think of me as bobo just because I do not talk or react, because I am not. Nobody is. I am an observant and with my observations, people want to be ahead of each other. Mas magaling ako kesa sa'yo at mas may alam ako. It sucks being an introvert in these cases, because sometimes I know better than the other person who exudes that kind of energy, and when they are proven wrong, I am the one who will be pointed out as someone who does not know anything, just because I did not identify the problem earlier on. Mind you, I know there is something wrong, but I trust them when they seemed to know what they are doing. 

I am gullible, yes. I also know I should not be.

People who have no problem expressing themselves seem to enjoy moments with introverts like me. Para akong kinakain ng buhay each time. I cannot talk back, because I do not like confrontations. Feeling ko nanghihina ako. I do not like people talking round and round. Nasabi mo na, inuulit mo pa. For me, once is enough. May pinag-aralan ako. You can talk to me like normal adults do; with conviction and reason. I can learn fast. It does not mean I do not speak, I know nothing. I just do not like the idea of explaining myself to people, because people most of the time have already created thoughts of me even before I introduce myself. Treat me with respect. Let us treat each other with respect, please.